February

In late February, I will have been without my father for as long as I had him.

I read something recently (was it Palahniuk?) where a man relayed that he sometimes wondered when his father would emerge from the shadows. Perhaps he'd see him on the street? (Could that have been it?) Or was it that his father would someday come to him, having faked his death years before? Someday this man would learn that his father had to escape some sort of danger that forced him into a lengthy hiding. But his father would come back to him and all would be well. The author noted that this character was aware of what it meant, or at least what it seems to have meant, that a grown man was still hopeful for this sort of miracle. But, I understand.